Private Message to Professors Siz and Sprout

[alt_cedric]

This morning Madam Pomfrey figured out that the badge she gave me for the YPL sash ‘to be my best, most alert, most loyal self’ was spelled to force me to pay full attention to anyone talking around me. It didn’t directly make me as grumpy as I have been since, but the feeling of loss of control had that effect. I apologise for my behaviour these last few days.

Madam Pomfrey says she will inform Deputy Headmistress Vector and Headmistress McGonagall when she returns. We think she has neutralised the spell, but I will continue to wear the pin as a reminder.

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[alt_sinistra]

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What was she thinking.

Look: first, sorry I wasn't more on top of this: l lay down for a little, and turned the Notificio off for anyone but Raz.

Second, I'm meeting with her in a few minutes. I won't bring it up, since clearly that's not the useful thing right now. But I will let Septima and Minerva know if there's anything relevant. (I had intended to get her to talk about some of the changes, if I can.)

As to your mood, well. I can't throw stones, there. I did wonder at what Andie said, but then everything went to pieces, and we had other things to occupy us.

Are you feeling a bit better now? Quiet workroom, still at your disposal.

[alt_cedric]

I regret snapping at several people last week, but I'm not sure what to do about it. I don't think it would be wise to talk about the reason for the state I was in and I'm not sure what to say if I can't talk about the reason.

Having to bottle my reaction up isn't helping, but I have an idea about that and hopefully I'll be able to destress about it soon. The mood in the castle isn't helping, I sent four kids to Madam Pomfrey yesterday for treatments for nightmares or inability to sleep.

[alt_sinistra]

I quite see, on talking about the details. Though if you wanted, a simple "I'm sorry I snapped" might go a fair way. Or even "Sorry I snapped, Madam Pomfrey's helping me solve it" if you wanted (though if you didn't, that's completely understandable.)

Good luck with your idea? I have to agree about the mood. I'm torn between wanting to do more to improve things and - well, there's a reason I've been up the tower a great deal the last five days. Stars are very sensible and soothing and predictable.

Do let me know if I can lend a hand though. (And it's helping me, at least, to turn the wireless on for twenty minutes or so, and then turn it off, rather than leave it on. I want to know if there's news, but hearing it over and over again is just too much.)

[alt_cedric]

I'll see what I can manage. I'll be saying something at the prefects meeting tonight. I definitely should say something to Andie as that was way out of line.

I haven't been listening to the wireless, other than in passing in the common room. I just haven't felt the need to pay particularly close attention as I don't have anyone over there. I know why it is so hard for those that do and why many can't seem to turn it off. I just don't have the personal connection that makes others not be able to think of anything else.

I saw Finnegan in the hospital wing looking for a wireless and some privacy on the 5th, before Umbridge took him away to her office. Have you heard he lost a cousin?

Unless you want to help me work out until I fall over and pass out, I'm not sure what you can do to help. I'm going to ask someone (and other someones if the first says no or not soon enough) to partner with. Hopefully a really good workout or two will take the edge off.

[alt_sinistra]

I'm quite sure Andie'll forgive you - she was far more puzzled than upset, I think.

Honestly, on the news, I've been trying to figure that out.

Obviously, I've been wanting to know what happens, and if it affects Raz, or other people I know. And the devastation's horrible. (And, as a friend someone a friend reminded me yesterday, all those people have friends and families.) And I had heard about Finnigan, too.

But at the same time, when there's not much we here can do, I'm not sure that being constantly at the wireless is helpful either. You might have a far better balance than I've managed.

On the last, watch how someone might take that, mm? More seriously, my preferred choices are either a long walk round the lake if it's light out, or going up and down the astronomy tower stairs until I'm worn out if it's not. (Nice predictable straight climb, unlike the main castle.) You're welcome to a bit of stair if it helps, though I'm hoping I won't need it myself tonight.

[alt_cedric]

What?

Oh. OH Merlin. That is NOT what I meant, my apologies. You're a teacher

I tried flying for hours yesterday before practice but it wasn't enough. A walk around the lake wouldn't be enough. I'd rather have a work out partner If I can't find someone to exercise with stair charges might push everything else out of my head for awhile.

[alt_sinistra]

I didn't think you'd meant anything by it, no worries (just some people make much of the oddest things.)

Look - not up for duelling work myself right now, but if you want space or someone to supervise (if I can wrangle the time) I'm glad to. And as I said, the stairs are yours if you want them. (Not the most exciting option, but effective enough.) As for a walk - well, I did it Tuesday at a stiff pace, about two thirds my usual time, and it helped.

I miss the hills near where I grew up, really. Lovely balance of exertion and nice views.